Ok here are the updates of June that I randomly typed out in the midst of studying on 26 June 3.46pm.

A crumpler bag here costs 999rmb.

World cup – Watched the Brazil/Port match at the sanlitun big field surrounded by tiongs with no beers allowed. At my fingertips since it's free-to-air here but I've kinda lost the craze, lazy to watch sometimes. Once every 4 years, I miss staying up to watch with mommy :) It's cool to be able to understand what people are saying yet not be understood when we talk or laugh about them. The beauty of Singlish. To hear and not be heard. Yet be able to respond fluently in their tongue if approached. People are puzzled everywhere we go. Enigma. Watched pool at the bar-restaurant the other day and realized that there are people who suck more than us.

Music – Miss playing the piano. Spent the night discussing music theory with the guitar peeps at Macs. Forgot most of my stuff. Want to master the guitar but feel that it’s much more difficult than piano.

Notty - miss my lil doggy!

Record time from CWM home in 15-20mins. Fun biking at night cos less traffic n cooling, reminds me of night cycling esp since I just printed a photo of the jays lying in the middle of changi coastal road years ago.

Camps – another night spent talking about lame camp games and sharing fright night experiences. Felt so old to have been through so much crap. We're past camp-age! Lol.

Need to study. Focus. Thoughts adrift. Want to do anything else but study. Can spend hours browsing photos and missing the good times. Want to go shopping, watch movie, go biking, shot-capturing, watch shows, ktv, workout…

Interning at the gynae dept has opened my eyes to all sorts of things. Rethink abortion, lives, pregnancy etc. Did my first pap smear for a patient. Disturbing to think that we did the gynae check for the auntie selling mushrooms at FZ. *shudders*

Interning at the pediatrics dept. Love children and old people. 2 ends of the age spectra but equally cute esp when they’re together. Innocence. All parents love their children. Heart-warming. Always makes me smile :)

Lots to think about.

I guess we’re all growing up. Faced with the irreversible process of ageing. It’s depressing. Coming towards the end of my uni education and I’m still far from ready to be a doctor. So much more to learn, so much more to see. And prospects in Singapore seem bleak. Trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel for a better future.

To tour Europe, to see the world. To live among foreigners in a foreign country for extended periods of time. Out of my comfort zone. Complete independence. As you grow emotionally, your outlook on life changes.

Wish there was something I’m really good at. Not talented in studies, music, sport or language. I don’t have a power memory, I’m just an average student, I can’t recognize the key of a song simply by ear, neither can I sight-read well or remember chords. Can’t run fast for extended periods of time, no ball sense, poor reflexes, poor stamina, not a good swimmer. Not a master of many languages, probably can’t even win a quarrel in Chinese. Not particularly knowledgeable in any area. Can’t sing or dance well. Not flexible enough like yoga masters. Sometimes I look at others and feel so inadequate, but realize in many ways I’m probably accomplished enough though that’s just a way of comforting myself. Way to go! Simple me in an ever-changing, complex world. Is this transition into adulthood?

Can’t wait to go to the gym. Last wk went for yoga and aerobics, almost drowned in my sweat. It was reminiscent of 2.4. The sweat dripped and stung my eyes but was otherwise damn shiok.