twenty one!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! =)

A big thank you to all who turned up for my 21st birthday party last night! It was fun and meaningful cos of all of u :) Thanks for the well wishes, presents and cards! Was especially touched by team USA who surprised me with home-baked muffins topped with m&ms and yea, whipped cream in my face. That's really a first. I don't usually get it all over my face, to the point that i can't see and can't breathe. lol. I was stunned and frankly, i didn't think it was a trick when they asked me to use my mouth to dig a key out of the muffin. Oh wells. But great fun we had, what with all that picture taking and cream attacking. Thanks again guys, for all that you've done for me :) The pri, sec, JC, uni and team USA peeps...love you guys!! :)) It made all the initial stresses during the preparation and planning period well worth it. Just being able to see everyone, gathered in the same place at the same time, for me, was heartening :) I always wondered if i die suddenly, who'd turn up at my funeral, but after last night, I think i've got a clearer idea. I won't be forgotten after all! hahaha i know it's random talking about such stuff on the day i reach adulthood but hey, i've always been random. After all the excitement last night, I had a hard time falling asleep but today was back to reality. No more fun and celebrations, just a day of mugging. Not really productive, but i tried. haha. On my birthday! My 21st birthday! Just for the sake of TCM. oh wells, life is all about sacrifices. (But i still think i'm gonna flunk on thursday, good luck to me ><)

Nothing much has changed. I'm finally a happy girl for the moment, but i'm dreading school tmr, dreading the test on thursday, yet feeling lazy and stressed simultaneously.

PS: sorry if i wasn't a good host last night! was already trying my best and i lost my appetite with all the buzz and having to mingle among the diff groups. it was a pity i didn't get to really sit down and chat with many ppl but hey we'll meet up soon yea? ;)

stressed. sometimes she feels so alone.


bring on the rock and emo music, chocolate and dream of iced oatmeal cookies.


she should clear her head, stop worrying, eliminate all the expectations she has of people and really focus. a million things bugging at the same time can only be cured by a good sleep. but time is not a luxury. not now.

Am currently addicted to Secondhand Serenade, chocolate and subway cookies. (short of better alternatives in school)

I'll be indebted to anyone who can bring me Iced Oatmeal Cookies from the USA. I'm really craving for them :(

Wishlist!

current wishlist! applies to birthday, children's day, christmas etc.

Handphone (papee)
Ipod/ any small, trusty, sleek mp3 player (SH)
Watch (WWF)
Wallet (J4)
Earphones
Portable hard disk (team USA)
2GB RAM
Bag
Accessories

to me

And you find that in fact the world is always changing. The roads, buildings, and even the skyline. The last time i walked down the esplanade after coming back from the states, i saw new architecture, new lights and new colours. Wonder what it'll be like when i'm in Beijing. Hopefully the people that matter never change. I love it when i meet old friends i've never seen for ages, and we can still talk like nothing's ever changed, like we were still back in those days when we used to hang out so frequently, as if we never grew up and that we never left each other, be it for studies or other reasons. I will miss everybody when i'm gone, but fact is friendships are much less volatile than relationships, and I don't want to be proven wrong. As the world changes, some things in life just never change right? Like how people have Hungry Ghost festival dinners and auctions, like how the 2 frogs jump around in our garden every night, and like how the birds in the airwell come back season after season to build nests, lay eggs and teach their chicks how to fly. Different generations, but same habits. Like how ppl feel sleepy after lunch.



The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

she hates it when people steal her stuff. but she hates it even more when she trusts her stuff with people and they don't look after it, and don't feel much remorse when they lose the stuff.

she loves spontaneity and freedom.

and she's sorry she had to be such a wet blanket tonight. it was beyond her control :(

maybe that's why she yearns to travel, to be away from home. cos then she'll truly be free.