Don't know why but my impatience has become more evident in recent times. Never realised that I was such an impatient person. Hmm.

Am in an uber grouchy mood. Grouchy groundhog pulls a long face.

Ooh lala. Back to reality. To the sad old mundane routine of working life. About time to restock my account anyway.

Things I missed about SG:
1. The food
2. The safety
3. My dog
4. The efficiency
5. My weekly runs

It's time to live like a pauper! No more zara, mango, h&m and promod for me. Lol. And I'm swearing off western food and gelatos for as long as I can. I think I've eaten more gelatos than I have in the last 2 years combined! But still can't beat Jan's record of 6 scoops a day. Lol. Thankfully hawker food here is comparatively cheap :)

It's been a crazy week, it really has. OT-ing every day has tempered with my mind. Makes sense if I'm not coherent I guess. So many ups and downs, really been tiring. Hope there won't be any negative repercussions. For now, things have gone back to normal. Or so they seem haha. Never knew work could grate on me like that. How upsetting. Anyway I just received a very thoughtful postcard from a close friend, and it brings much sweetness into the long-awaited end of the week. Though still premature-today is Thursday-hopefully tmr would be peaceful and leave me with enough bandwidth to brace myself for next week. Sounds like Survivor or something. Oh wells.

The past few weeks just zoomed by. 1 hens night and 2 weddings in 3 weeks, a trip to HK, colleagues leaving and joining...finally have the time to sit down and do nothing :)

Putting aside the pending work and courses just to enjoy a slow Saturday. Saturdays are the only free days of the week. An entitlement to sleeping in. Gotta hit the gym/ beach soon.

Recently, what my teacher wrote for us in our graduation magazine keeps popping into my mind.

＂趁年轻，想干啥就干啥...时间会消磨你的激情！＂

Strikes a raw chord, doncha think so? It's one of the best pieces of advice I've received :)

Unsettled

I dreamt I lost my car. Most vivid and unsettling in recent times. Probably a premonition of sorts, not about losing something physical but maybe losing confidence and sense of direction. The ever changing dynamics and environment makes the future all the more uncertain.

Suddenly have this wild thought to abandon everything and go join some humanitarian relief that can at least take me places, show visible outcomes and give me a tangible sense of accomplishment everyday.

Miyajima - A picture of unadulterated serenity.

Imjingak

Landmines. It reminded me of the DMZ, just that instead of posing with a sign that demarcated the unsafe zone which still contained unearthed landmines, this time the threat was real. Haha I feel like I'm writing a story. Lesson learnt that hierarchy must be respected and it's imperative to tread carefully.

Sometimes wonder how life would have turned out if I'd done the veterinary course instead. All the "what ifs" that surface when things don't happen to go as expected.

When people ask me what I studied, somehow the first thing that pops out of my mouth is "TCM". Despite mine being a double degree and I could actually very well have said "Biomedical Sciences" instead. Job prospects aside, I'm sure we all know whether we indeed truly regret taking this course or are not the least bit proud of it. For me, these 5 years have made me pro-TCM, and we've all seen its limitless potential in what it can treat, but the realities of life show that sometimes passion is not enough- many other accompanying factors play a part too. Which is why I guess the main priority for me right now is my ricebowl. It's not solid enough to indulge my thinking big and dreaming big, just yet.