freak

i am so freaking pissed with myself that i can't help it but blog to vent my frustrations. how could i be such a dumb toot?! maybe in the near future i'll look back and realise how stupid and childish i've been to feel at odds with the world over just one stupid freaking screwed up test. yeah maybe it doesn't matter in the end but it's at this moment that i can't just let it go and say that it doesn't affect me because there's no denying that it does. big time. i'm so annoyed,so pissed,so frustrated with the way how things are so awfully unfair. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i am not stupid. so how the hell did i mis-interpret the 10mk qs and get 0 for it? to think that i started studying so early and studied so hard. the outcome? i lost out to those who just mugged the night before. wth is my freaking problem? u can't stop me from believing that last-minuting is still the way to go. saves time and disappointment,right? it doesn't help matters that the person who copied from me scored higher in the end. why must my whole class be full of over-achievers? i'm freaking in the bottom percentile of my class now. people who study diligently shouldn't deserve such an ending right? u might say 80 is good. but that's relative right? like when three-quarters of the class scores above 90. then u know where u stand. at the very end of the line. just get condemned and shut up right? what's the use of complaining? it simply means that i suck. i am such a lousy shit i wonder what i'm doing in this course. wth. yes and to help things,this is the only test before the exams and this is a 6AU course. a whopping 6AUs that i can't afford to screw. i wonder how the weightage of this test is like. i must morph into a super mugger with 2GB of memory space for the exams. lalalalalalalalala............