A mix of emotions.

Am disappointed, pissed, frustrated and sad.

Makes me wonder about the definition of a true friend.

Disillusioned.

Are those i considered close and true actually not worthy? Even as compared to some newer acquaintances?

Priorities. Look at yourself now. Don't you think sometimes you're too quick to judge and criticise without looking at your own behaviour? Circumstances may be different, but it's all about making sacrifices. What have you done?